Hold a thought, pen it down

I finally managed to see Before Sunset (1995) with the same cast of Julie Delpy and Ethan Hawke. and what a movie it turned out to be!

i actually realised yesterday night while watching this movie before sunrise that i have grown up. ok i am sure you must be thinking that i have totally lost it. no i havent, let me start from the beginning...

till yesterday i kpet telling my friends that i hardly feel like i am hitting 30...i still feel like i am 20 or 22...i dont know at which age i just got stuck and my realisation that i am moving with the years stopped somewhere along the line...

i dont know how it stopped but it had and when my birthdays came or when i checked the calender or thought back over the years i would feel kind of surprised...like 'how come i spend so many years...i dont actually remember the experience' or something along that line...

then yesterday i was watching this movie before sunrise...i had watched the sequel before sunset before...so this movie was like watching something backwards...u know u know the present and then u take a trip back to the past....and while watching it i felt like i was taking a trip back to my own past...
and for the first time maybe i thought so intensely but without emotions about my past and i realised it is just that my past...i have travelled a long distance since then and have actually moved on...

suddenly the last 10 years became so clear to me...it is like so far i had lived in them but for the first time my consciousness registered them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is that wierd? i am sure it is not....am sure there are others who have lived life this disjointed...