Not worth it....

I sit and stare, pretending to be busy...
But I am not,
I cannot work for the life of me...
All I want to do is sleep, sleep and sleep some more...
Wake up and eat...
And then back to sleep...
I need motivation to get back to normal life...
But I dont want motivation to get back to dreadgery...
I dont want inspiration...
I just want to sleep and not even dream...
I am not sad,
Just a little lost...
Impatience with myself does not help...
Not having friends around does not help...
Talking does not help...
Everything seems too much of an effort...
Nothing seems worth it...

When is enough enough???

When do you draw a line in friendship?

What happens when friendship clashes with your principles? Yesterday had a fight with an old friend. Latey her crossing the line seemed endless. And suddenly you realise what you are supporting is something you are principally against. After a long time I actually madly, ruthlessly and completely lost my temper. I am sure I surprised and pained her, I surprised myself no less. There was once a time when I used to floy of the handle quiet a lot. Then broken heart, staying away from home and adjusting with strangers had made me a lot more docile. Yesterday suddenly I was off the hook. I realised that I could be regreting it today but strangely do not. I did what I felt to be right at that point and I still feel the same!